Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Learning to Wait on Him

I am so grateful for God’s peace and comfort. Through all my discouragements He has remained faithful and reminded me I have no reason to be troubled. I am also grateful for an extraordinary friend who has encouraged me and spoke truth to me to put me back on my feet.

I sense God has something big for me and for this ministry. I am learning that sometimes we have to start over, or He has to tear down before He can build back up. However, even in the middle of a storm, I can find rest and peace in Him. I felt this truth assured when a tornado hit our base and took out some of our cabins. I was working in the office while it hit and even though I had no idea of the destruction going on outside, I do remember wondering if the wind would blow our roof off. I thought it was a silly thought, but not long after I discovered it did blow off several roofs as well as leaving a cabin in pieces. During all this I sat in the office I listened to worship music and soaked up God’s love. You can read more about the tornado here: http://thriveafrica.org/2010/04/looking-past-wreckage-to-his-promises/

These past few days I have been disciplining myself to not only read the Bible every day, but silencing myself to wait for the presence of God. I have felt my spirit renewed and rested as I wait on God and sit in His presence.

I have decided to do a juice fast May 3rd through May 9th and pray for the unreached people and missions. I also expect to grow in my faith and prayer life. You are welcomed to join me or pray for me during this time.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Trials and Highlights

This month has been the hardest so far for me with Jeremy leaving and now gone, taking a 2 week break from our normal schedule, and thinking so much about home. I’ve also thought a lot about what God wants me to do next year. This past week has been the week I have missed home the most, and that has made me rethink my future plans.
I planned on being a missionary after this year, but now I want to move back to Arizona and be close to home. There are a lot of ministry opportunities back home, but it doesn’t make sense to go back when I’ve wanted to be a missionary for so long. I don’t know if God might be calling me to something unexpected, or if my fears are getting in the way of my dreams.
I haven’t felt a strong connection with God for a while and my time with God has been kind of dry. But on Tuesday God shared a lot with me and that was my highlight for these past two weeks. I guess with so much on my mind I have been emotionally and spiritually drained. However, God gave me tons of encouragement on Tuesday with reminding me of how much He loves me and how He created me. He reminded me that He wants to spend time with me this year, and He has given me wealth of love. He said I have a lot inside to share, but I’ve let fear block its path. It was like a got lost in the race and fell because I was exhausted of trying to find the path, but God picked me up and showed me that the path was under my feet the whole time. I was just too blind with fear to see that He has lit my path for me. Please be praying for me as I continue to seek God’s will and His vision for my life. Also pray that I will trust in God for the strength I need to fulfill my responsibilities here, as they have grown to an overwhelming amount in these last few days.

…”Be strong and of good courage, and do it; do not fear nor be dismayed, for the Lord God – my God – will be with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you, until you have finished all the work for the service of the house [vision] of the Lord.” 1 Chronicles 28:20

Friday, April 9, 2010

Fall Break

These past two weeks most of the students have been off school for Easter weekend and fall break. Yes, it is fall in South Africa and we are preparing for winter! We have also been taking a break from our classes and regular events.
During this time Jeremy has decided to go home early due to personal stuff going on in his life. It has been hard for all of us knowing of Jeremy’s trials and moving on to an internship with four girls now.
Last week we went to Qwa Qwa and spent the whole week in a village there visiting and getting to know the Basotho people. This week we painted the rooms for the farm staff on base. The farm staff are all nationals who are constantly helping us with cooking, cleaning, maintenance, and whatever else that needs to be done. It was nice to do something for them and they were very excited to have their housing painted.